Melbourne ....Home to be?

I finally got my Australian residency status. Actually was last year haha....but only did my entry this year, 7th May 2010.

How do I feel? I felt going home for a celebration hahaha....really, the whole feeling is relaxing and easy.

This is the only trip where I did not took any photos. Really....not even one picture. Oh wait, there is one which I took in KLIA. Why this picture? Because in my entire life, this is the most expensive bottled water that i ever had!!! 8 ringgit for a such a small bottle of mineral water. Maybe small is not really descriptive, i should use the word "petite" to describe the size hahaha. The best part is i got thirsty again in the next 10 minutes.

Apart from the absurd price i paid for the water, i really enjoyed my short trip this time. I get to meet all my closest and bestest friends. Having the the time to share jokes, laughs, our problems and many other childhood memories. You guys really helped me to off-load some of my problems i have in mind.

So the next the question will be, is Melbourne going to be my home? I hope so....but it is not as easy as that. I need to have a steady job, a higher paid or better paid than what I have right now. Should I take the risk and make the leap? That is one thing that is bothering me......

Well, like the old chinese saying.....When a boat is about to dock, it will always sail in a straight line..... I am waiting for my breakthrough....

This is the 8 ringgit mineral water that i bought from coffee bean!!!!

Decision...

Decision, something that I would avoid. Did you realised that in life, it always involved this sort of choices. From the time you woke up to the time you went back to bed, it always involved decision. You need to decide on what to wear, what to eat, what to do for the rest of the day, where to go, whom to meet, and the list goes on. It is so exhausting sometimes.

Life as an infant is the best I think, where most of your decisions are taken care of. You do not need to decide on what to eat because there is only one standard meal for an infant. Even if you are kid, those meal choices are decided for by your parents. That would even includes the clothes to wear, and everything else.

But when you grew older, things you need to decide for yourself. Choices that you have to make the best for you. It is good sometimes to decide especially those that are obvious and of your choice. But what if those choices aren't what you want to have or you are not sure what you want anymore, what sort of decision would one need to choose or make ? How to make them?

I am a person who is lazy to decide especially on meals. I would just go to the same restaurant ordering different dishes on the menu. Or maybe I am exhauted from making choices and deciding has somehow put me in a dormant mood. To have someone to decide for you is then having a potential control freak that makes your life pretty much act as if like their remote control. I dont want that and I dont think I would be happy with that.

But then what is the one thing that I would be happy? That I would know that is the one? What is the one thing that really scares me at this point? Why is it so hard now for me to make one decision? Is it I am fighting with my internal self or am I running from something? I dont know and I dont know why am I feel so scared to make that decision that everyone is anticipating. The risk? The uncertainty that it possess? Something that I need to decide for myself, whether I will want to continue to stay put or take a leap and see if I can make it. Again, decision decision decision...... Sigh....I guess it is part of growing up.

How Do You Do?

Not sure how many people realised that is one question that was asked too many. It is almost the second question that sort of comes out naturally after you have said your selective hi or hello. It became a habit for everyone to say it, sometimes it doesnt carries the weight from its original meaning.

In the cyber world of chat, that is a convenient opening line for everyone, myself included. It is convenient and safe and you gives you enough time to think of another while waiting for an answer, so long if the other person you are talking to is of your interest. I used that line a lot and even more when I am in australia. Everywhere you go in Australia, hey there how are you doing.....of course you need to know that they are expecting a standard "im good, how about you?" answer from you. Whether they meant it or not, that is not the question.

Funny to think about it, in europe or malaysia we dont normally use that. There is sort of another way of determining the person is fine or not. By their looks, oh wait that just only me I think. Yeah come to think of it, when we not ask that sort of question. Whether we meant it or not, it is always felt good when someone asked how you do on that particular day. The problem with that question is when we have an elaborative respondent. It is a nightmare to hear how awful day it turned out to be for someone who you dont really care. I mean it is ok to hear from a friend but from a stranger, it just sometimes makes you feel awful or better if you managed to turn his negativity to the sun.

How Do You Do? I heard that a lot and that is one question that i dont have a real answer. I will always have a standard answer to give it to anyone who were to ask me. "I'm fine, thank you. " But am I really fine? am I feeling really good? am I really having a great day? Not all the time but I guess to save everyone's trouble, just give one simple answer that everyone would have expect and bring a smile on. The world doesnt need to know in details of how I feel.......it is one easy question with a hard answer.

So now, How Do You Do????.......

Susan Boyle - Singer - Britains Got Talent 2009 (With Lyrics)

OMG...her voice is so angelic...so nice....

A Horrified Day at J-day

Yesterday, my sister and I went to Jusco. I wanted to get something for my friend who just deliver a baby girl, so I asked my sister to come along. When we arrived at the place, so many cars were parked haphazardly along the way. The parking is full and so I have no choice but to park few metres away from the complex. Still wondering what is the big occassion?

When we walked in, I got a shocked. Goshhhhhhhhhhh so many people !!!!!!! There are this pool of people going everywhere and so crowded the complex. Then we realised, it is Jusco member sale. Obviously this is my first time came for a member sale. I am a person who hates crowded places. Placards are everywhere, banner are highly lifted across the complex to signify the Day where Jusco give such offer to her members. Then there are people with hailer. Yes in the complex!!! Then suddenly I feel myself walking in a "high class pasar malam" hahahaha....

So I quickly get my stuff and get through my annoyance of getting bumped each time. Then we went to take a look at the supermarket. My Lord.....people just grabbing everything and anything. The trolleys all are full and the resit from the cashier was few metres long. I then wonder, are the things really that cheap? do they really need to stock up like that? Not that our country is going into deep recession tomorrow or it is a war stricken area that by tomorrow we will hungry to death. Toilet rolls all gone......vitagen, gone.....rice 30 ringgit only per packet....gone, ultra soft pillows....gone, comforter....gone.

This is indeed my first experience and truly shocking at the way Malaysian behave when it comes to sale. The word SALE or DISCOUNT truly plays some magic in our mind. I mean myself too are fond with two words on certain items hahaha. There is this man who shopped till he sweats.....i mean really sweat as if he has run on a marathon or something. Funny that there are two ambulances parked outside the complex on standby hahahaha.... I am not exaggerating, it is true. My sister even told me that people started to queue up in front of the complex as early as 8 am. That is really like what, 2.5 hours earlier from Jusco's operating hours. One word "kiasu" hahaha......imagine yourself to queue as 8 am all to get two new bottles of 1 ringgit cheaper Dynamo, or two ultra soft pillows for the price one.....hahaha

As for me, I just merely walk around and yet I still have my Vitagen....hehe. No need to queue or get up early :)

Black Testicles

A male patient is lying in bed in the hospital, wearing an oxygen mask over his mouth and nose, still heavily sedated from a difficult four hour surgical procedure. A young student nurse appears to give him a partial sponge bath. Nurse', he mumbles, from behind the mask 'Are my testicles black?' Embarrassed, the young nurse replies 'I don't know Sir. I'm only here to wash your upper body and feet.' He struggles to ask again, 'Nurse, are my testicles black?' Concerned that he may elevate his vitals from worry about his testicles, she overcomes her embarrassment and sheepishly pulls back the covers. She raises his gown, holds his penis in one hand and his testicles in the other, lifting and moving them around. Then, she takes a close look and says, 'There's nothing wrong with them, Sir !!' The man pulls off his oxygen mask, smiles at her and says very slowly, 'Thank you very much. That was wonderful, but listen very, very closely..... .

' A r e - m y - t e s t - r e s u l t s - back ?

The Return of Toi Toi

It has been months....4 months exactly that I went missing. Friends keep asking me am I not blogging anymore, which caught me surprised because to me my blog was never interesting, well not interesting enough for the bloggers award hahaha if there is such award ever presented.

Yeap, I have not been blogging for that long. So what did I do ? and what happened along those months? Ahem...I became lazy hahahaha that is the only reason why I am not blogging. But along those months, I did read the blog entries from my fellow friends, especially karin's. My god, so many picture of food!!!!!! I think the reason I put on weight was because of those pictures :oP hahahahaha. And our dear Jolly, so manyyyyy jokes, always a good laughter to read her blog. If you want to know movie synopsis, Jess Teo blog is the place to go hahahahaha......not to mention korean and japanese hang out at Alan's hehehe.......so what is the theme for Toi Toi? Hmmmmm....no idea hahaahahaha

So those who did once in a while check this site out, thank you for your loyalty. I will be start writing again (hopefully hehe). I think that's it for now. I will write more tomorrow.... more on what happened on those four months, what am i doing now, what is my plan in the future.....i thought maybe i am going to write more on philosophy......first, upload some pics first rite. How to link this to ahhhhh.....uhhhh....what is that site again, yeah flickr...hhahahahaha...

signing off for now....take care. MUAKKKKKKK