My Highway..My Life

Today I went to the hospital to do my gastroscope. Waited for the doctor for an hour!!!! All turned up that the result is not so convincing in a way. Well, he found my ulcers are now spreading, more and concentrated to the area where my hernia is. A bit worrying actually. Took few samples and have to wait two weeks for the lab result.....now that just explained how interesting my two weeks will going to be. Nevertheless, life still goes on and good. I am okie, so dont worry....I am strong five years ago, I will be stronger now. Besides, I am walking this path with my Creator, my Father who is holding my hand. Like the footprint phrase "where are you God when I needed you the most, because I only see one footprint?" then God answered, "I am carrying you in my arms and those footprints are mine". I know for sure, He is doing that to me and to you too.

Funny enough, for the past few days I kept thinking of what to write in this blog and the idea of my Highway philosophy came up. I kept procastinating this write up, but I guess today it makes more sense to share it with you. I will share one of the philosophies that makes me stronger as a person.

I took this picture when I were driving back from work one day hehe....I think this picture suits for today's topic a lot.

I used to develop many philosophies when I was small. One of my favourites is the highway idea. It is this philosophy that in one way or another helped me pulled through, of course other than my own religion which played the main role to help me spiritually. My favourite philosophy goes like this….

Imagine yourself in a highway or any road. Now in this highway, at the start of it, is only you. As you walked this road, you soon realised someone is also walking the same road, or someone hitch hiking. In that same road, you also find there are many signboards that lead you to your destination. Sometimes along your way, you got something like a big hole on your road that makes you want to change route or you have a big tree tumbled right before your eyes that blocked your way from going any further. Sometimes you came to the junction that need you to decide either left or right in order to reach your destination. So you will consult either people or a map to do that.

Our life is so much like that. We all walk on our own road because we knew we are the one who will face every situation and problems right from the start we are brought to this world. Then, we got to know our family and as we grown, friends came into our life. Some stayed and some gone like hitch hikers. No matter what is the outcome, I am pleased and glad that they have actually came. Because it is the experience of being together and that valuable time we shared. Then, in our desperate hours of life, when we do not know what to do next, we often asked for guidance or even prayed for signs and miracles. That is explained by the signboards…it leads us some way or another. Along the way there are nice sceneries and even some bad ones when the weather turned bad. That is part of life…..very much explained for our mood and emotions. Then the obstacles came, bad weather tumble the tree or a big hole that sometimes makes you want to make a U-turn. But in our life how many u-turn can you made. It is best to see what is that problem and clear it. If it is a hole, mend it….if it is a big tree, then chop it and throw it aside. Of course it will need effort and time, but what doesn’t? Everything happened in your life are effort and time. This is part of your journey and part of your survival. At some part of our life, we are in dilemma. We often don’t know what to do. What decision to make. So we have reached the junctions of life where we often asked which one is the best.

I especially feel connected with this philosophy because it is very intriguing, nice and relative. I came about it when I were at my lowest during my childhood. I often got teased in schools. At the age of 12, I started to ask myself a question of why and what is life?. I started to lose interest in life and often see it as a cruel world to be. Then as I am travelling one day in a bus to the town, I asked myself why too much that I came to think of this philosophy. That time I'm in this bus, in this highway……then I started to think yeah exactly. Life is like this highway…..

So whatever I am going through right now, it is just another "storm"....like every rain, when it stopped, the sun will again shine to its fullest. Life is filled with many wonderful things and beautiful people and stuff for us to admire. If we kept focusing in the same issue, we will not took notice of the beauty that surrounding us...

For me, I will do what I always did. Smile, for I have lived for today. Smile, for I have every reason to smile....Smile for I have a good and resounding life experiences. I'll smile because I know God is smiling back at me and the people around me are smiling with me....