Scope...A video in your body?

Tomorrow I would be doing my gastroscope again, after i mischieviously stopped for two years. This time I would be doing at a new hospital with a new doctor. My previous doctor have already migrated to Melbourne. I like her....she is a very nice and lovely doctor. Someone who knows how to give appropriate advice and caring enough to take note of your emotion and fear. I trust her a lot and I did well.....remarkable progress.

Then, when she migrated and referred me to a new doctor, I decided to stopped the whole treatment. I decided to do it my way, maybe i heard too much of Frank Sinatra's "My Way" haha. I double up my exercise routine and eat more healthily....I stayed that way...until recently, my conscience told me to go for a checkup.

This time I went for a new doctor. Hopefully, that trust can be developed with him. He is going to do the first scope tomorrow on me, using the new technology. Dont know what the hell is that but certainly hope that it will be okie. Each time as I am wheeled into the Operating Theatre, I will be flooded with many uncertainties and fears. But above everything, I know I got God with me in that room....I know in a way, I would be safe.

For you who do not know. I am diagnosed with Barrett's Esophagitis. A rare condition where a large pre-cancerous hernia growth between my esophagus and my stomach, causing an active acid reflux. A disease where only one in a million people will get it, so i guess I won a lottery in a way haha. A very rare disease where no medical science right now is able to provide solutions. I had it now for almost five years. I still remember the first time when I was told about it....I just left with no idea of what is that and fear just automatically came in without any invite. But, being me a strong will person.....I fight it, I fight it well. Afterall, if you cant get rid of it, then live with it. Make the best out of it.

In a way, I feel thankful actually. It changed me in a big way. The way I took my life for granted previously just could not happened anymore with the new me. I enjoyed and appreciate more on each brand new day that I am able to breathe. I see more of life.....
The best way to handle this sort of situation is to be happpy......put on a smile and everything would be smiling back to you hehe