Your Love

by:Jim Brickman (sang by Michelle Wright)

it's not the flowers, wrapped in fancy paper
it's not the ring, i wear around my finger
There's nothing in all the world i need
when i have you here beside me,here beside me

Chorus
so you could give me wings to fly
and catch me if i fall
or pull the stars down from the sky
so i could wish on them all
but i couldnt as for more
cuz your love is the greatest gift of all

in your arms, i found a strength inside me
and in your eyes there's a light to guide me
i would be lost with out you
and all that my heart could ever want
has come true

so you could give me wings to fly
and catch me if i fall
or pull the stars down from the sky
so i could wish on them all
but i couldnt as for more
cuz your love is the greatest gift of ally

ou could offer me the sun, the moon
and i would still believe
you gave me everything
when you gave your heart to me

so you could give me wings to fly
and catch me if i fall
or pull the stars down from the sky
so i could wish on them all
but i couldnt as for more
cuz your love is the greatest gift of all

Smiley...

Today I dont feel so good. Kinda felt low and sad. I lost in my quest to fight for my promotion. Well I already expected that that lobster would not be that kind but I want to try it anyway. The verdict is I am right....he is not that kind.

Well at least someone know what I did and how much I have put it into.....So God, can I have a good promotion hahahaha.. You know I felt so low today after the meeting. Then, at night my sister called me and told me that go outside and see the moon. So I thought what is so special about it, so I went and see nothing because at that time I was having drinks with Karin & Chin Wei. The buildings kinda blocked the view. Then as we are driving back, I saw it.

Two stars that makes like an eye and the cresent moon which is in a U shape.....it indeed looks like a smiley face. Then, all of a sudden i felt good again. I felt like God is smiling down at me hahaha. I felt energetic and somehow received the assurance that I am seeking.

Last week I was almost in tears when my ex boss left. He is going back to europe. I was almost in tears because he told me "Kevin, I am very proud of you". Yeah, with just that it touched and moved me so much......I mean how many times people actually told you that. All my hardwork is sort of paid off even with just one recognition. All I am fighting for is really for someone to acknowledge me....... I am so happy on that day, with just a simple statement like that would already make me a great day....Thank you.....

Love Poem (No on Prop 8)

Joke of the Day

Read this joke from Jolly's blog....very funny...

A man escapes from a prison where he has been kept for 15 years. He breaks into a house to look for money and guns and finds a young couple in bed. He orders the guy out of bed and ties him to a chair. While tying the girl to the bed he gets on top of her, kisses her on the neck, then gets up and goes into the bathroom.

While he's in there, the husband tells his wife: "Listen, this guy is an escaped prisoner, look at his clothes! He probably spent lots of time in jail, and hasn't seen a woman in years. I saw how he kissed your neck. If he wants sex, don't resist, don't complain, do what he tells you, just give him satisfaction, no matter how much he ravages you. This guy is probably dangerous. If he gets angry, he'll kill us. Be strong, honey. I love you".

To which the wife responds, "He wasn't kissing my neck. He was whispering in my ear. He told me he was gay, thought you were cute, and asked if we kept any Vaseline in the bathroom. I told him where to find it. "Be strong,honey. I love you,Too."

Gavin Newsom....my latest Hero...

Gavin Newsom the current mayor of San Franciso.....my latest hero. Now why would I called a mayor in a city that I am not part of or even visited before as a hero? I watched the documentary "Pursuit of Equality" yestesrday and I am so touched by what this man stands and fight for. Truly admired by his courage to set what is right.

Equality is for all. It indeed is for all, regardless of race, religion, sexual orientation or anything. Everyone regardless of their background should be given the same and fair treatment. I am not an american nor I went to america before but I know what is it feels like to be have the same dream, to be in the same fight. I am gay who lives in this part of the world where tolerance to our community can be associate to the Stonewall era. I am absolutely admired Gavin courage and what he stands for in pursuit to set things right. What more even impressing is, he is straight. A straight guy to fight for gay cause is very rare.....a Straight Politician guy fighting for a gay cause, now that is a sign !!!! The time has come for us to arise !!!..

Its time for gay people I guess to come out from the closet. I think we are in the closet for too long that we do not know who we are anymore. This is our fundamental rights that we ought to fight for. If we were to continue to keep silent, then forever we will not be treated fairly and be taken seriously. Think about this, if we got a choice, we wont be living in this unique created live given to us. We will be like all those normal people out there, living and leading in the "ideal" lifestyle.

Why would we need to fight for all this? Marriage as often they said is between men and a women. But what actually the real definition of marriage? To me, a wedding is a time where two loving people who decided to make a vow to each other to stay commited and love each other for better and for worst. It is a sacred moment of course .....but it is not limited to straight couples only. If people decided to have that commitment in life, why cant we? Many christian said no because it is not right.......but then again as a christian, we shall not judge. We are not the judge, at the end of it during the day of Judgement, gays married couple are not going to explain to the christian people. They are to answer to God himself, directly where neither of us would need to be involved!!!! So stop playing judge and act like we are God.....cause we are not. Marriage is solely a decision by two consenting and rational adults, a decision where they made on their own......that we would need to respect, we would need to take it and if they are committed to one another.....they should get whatever same rights as any married couples are.

I believe in marriage and I believe in God, and I am gay......so i guess that is why I am sentimental about this thing.....
Watching the documentary and came to read a few articles for the "say no to 8" campaign, I felt like hey so many people, even those people in power are giving their thumbs up for this campaign.....i realised i need to voice out as well. Even though whether that prop8 win or lose, it doesnt affect me but as a gay person, I guess I should give my support .....

Equality is for all and say NO to PROP8....

Promotion....yet again?

Today at work, I am writing my job description. Yes you are reading it right, me writing my own job description of which my lobster boss asked me to do few weeks ago. Finally, my mood is good today to pen it down. What pissed me off is that why would I have to write my own job description? Isnt that supposed to be prepared by him? and when I asked for format....no idea, no clue. So I just did it free flow and wrote as if I am in heaven hahahaha.....

Well basically if your boss cant write your job description, its up to you to bring yourself to heaven hahaha.....I wrote three pages along of my skills and competencies. Yeah three pages long and for each skill, I quote what I did hahaha....

At the end of the exercise, I realised hey I am indirectly doing a self assessment on the my job group competencies. So I make a comparison to a job group higher than mine. To my surprised, I am close...in fact I think I am qualified for a promotion. So the evil side of me have a sneaky plan hahaha. I wrote to my boss and told him what I did for the job description and at the same time asked for a promotion !!! hahahaha.

Then I realised last year around this time, I too asked for the promotion and I got it hahaha and this time same thing happened, but not sure if I would be lucky enough haha. So fingers crossed and pray hard that I would get it as well this time. But chances are quite slim in this situation that I am leaving the team.......but if you never tried, you never know rite hehe.

If I got, it means I jumped two ladder in just 12 months hahahaha....... and that is really in heaven!!!

Bureaucractic Day

Today I almost forgot my best friend birthday hahaha....how could I? I was so drunk yesterday because of my ex-colleague's wedding. I already did some stupid stuff that I did not want to even speak about haha. Today when I woke up, I developed a headache.....yeah hangover. Gosh, it been years that I actually had this. Maybe really my age is catching up hahaha...or maybe not hehe.

Anyway, today went to the Klang Court to see a translator. My gosh, I dont know why I feel so fearful of court hahaha. You know sitting there, watching every lawyers walking around and those people.....the question you asked is "hmmmmmmm what did they done wrong?" hahaha then to the lawyers "eeee why all botak one" hahahaha The court building was built at 1965...no kidding, was already there way before I was born haha.

Then after that I went to the land office to get a form. Have to wait for almost an hour for a form. And the best part is, the whole process of land transfer will take me 1.5 years.....really !@#$!@$%#$!@#...

Work itself today or any other day is not fun anymore. I feel more stressful each day and grumpy. Dont like my bosses and their stupid ideas. Nonsense direction and rubbish decision.....God, I really...wait desperately want a new job !!!! But today dont want to talk about it....

Alphabeat - Go Go

very 80s hahaha but i love this..... Came to know this band, Alphabeat when I watch my favourite talk show...Graham Norton Show hehe

Stress......How Can I Have One Day Without You?

Lately in tremendous stress.....yeah, not feeling happy, full of worries and then just feel so low. So many things happened at the same time might not be a good idea actually. I finally submitted my skill asessment today. Hopefully, everything will go well.....

Went through my appraisal yesterday. I dont really put a high expectation on my bonus this year. I think it is for the better, at least I dont feel dissapointed at the end. Dont get me wrong, the appraisal went well, I got good comments for my performance but based on my experience, good comments doesnt always equal to good bonus. Anyway, will wait and see...

Talk about my next role....today, during one of the session, my new boss told me that if i dont find a job come next September, he would not close my window. It sounds good isnt it? Just that after this statement he added, "If I shut your window, I dont know what am I going to do with you, afterall I would have a replacement for your position by then". It just broke my heart. I mean I knew about the whole game rule, but to hear it is somehow different. But I am alright. I already had myself ready that if I still could not secure my next role in shell for x period, I would resigned on my own account. Afterall, it is easy for me to secure a position out there.....hmmmm maybe during recession might not be a good idea. But yet again, what option do I have....

The stress I have over this and couple with the others.....somehow I feel so tired and weak. Like now in this case, I could not see a difference of me at a place where I am all alone and me here with friends and family. I mean right now, I got no one to talk to nor I got anyone I can talk to. Sometmes you tell your friend and you realised they are not really interested to know ...... it is better to have that problem to myself, afterall I am still the only one who going to face the whole ordeal. Being alone is something I should get adjusted to.....

When I look at the mirror today, I still smile even though the stress is still there, the problem of yesterday still lingers and the worries for tomorrow still hovering in my mind. Yet above all this, I would still smile because there will be no other better way to handle this than to smile.....
Then sun continue shine even though there are rains clouds settling in, it continue to shine even though people complain about the heat, it continue to shine even though the night is taking over its course. The sun never failed to shine because he believes he still has the power to bring a difference ....I want to be that sun, to continue to shine even though the whole around me seems to collapse or given up on me.......I want to continue to shine that light....

Will You Support Me???

Today went to work for our townhall meeting. What is a townhall meeting? It is something like annual general meeting (AGM). I was elected to present my team's work. Basically to showcase our achievements for the year and knowledge sharing session. I did that presentation in front of few hundreds people....yeah a bit mind boggling huh...but I guess I am sort of used to do this already. I used to emcee, well sort of, in front of 200 over people in my previous company's annual dinner hahahaha....

What I find interesting was when people started coming up to me and commented about my presentation, how interesting it was and I was one of the best presenter....its so nice to hear such appraising words sometimes, it means your hard work sort of paid off. But, whenever I faced this sort of situation, I always got a blushed face....never failed. Too shy haha....but I got the whole groups of people laughing, so either I am a really good joker or I am a good presenter hahaha.

Anyway, today also after the meeting, my boss called me up for another short meeting. He asked me if I am interested to stay on with the team for another year......of which I can based in Holland during that period. Its nice right? But I turned that offer down. Now, many people think I am again stupid.....why turn down such offer. It was an offer for a position as transition manager....good pay, good place and expatriate term. If i took the job, I might get all those financial trouble that i am in.....all vanished in matter of days.

I turned the offer down, because money is important but I never let money to be the deciding factor. For me, the important thing is about my growth in terms of experience and career. The position sounds so lucrative but I knew it well enough that I would be doing the same thing again, the same struggle for the past two years. I turned it down because I felt myself should moved out from this comfort zone and start something new now. Something that can help me to grow in my career. I dont know if it was the right decison but normally if I made a wrong decision, I always strucked by guilt and regret. And this time around? Nope, nothing....just peace in my heart.

I dont know if I can get a new position come march next year. I dont know if I will ever to go back to my boss to beg him for my job back but I do know things would fall into places later. I have faith in Him to provide me what He promised and I have faith in the situation will get better....I need a lot of prayer because this struggle is slowly wearing me down.... What frustrated me was I dont know or I cant be assured of the job that I will be having.....or whether I would be able to pull it through. This insecurities are the one that I found myself fighting.....I cant denied that i did not felt fear....fear was part of insecurity, especially during this time of recession. Many have advised me not to do it during this time, that I should refrained myself of launching the plan this year, but instead wait sometime later. My instinct is telling me then "now or never" and I chose to believe them.......I guess, right now there is nothing more that I can do but just keep that hope high and really pray that things will fall into places. I am taking a high risk here out of faith. I know I can do it but I need people to support me, at least morally.....Will you support me? hahahaha....

From Melbourne to Kuala Lumpur....Factory Outlet Escapade

Factory Outlet....is an interesting place now for me haha. I was in Melbourne few weeks ago and I shopped too much too many in factory outlet over there... Guess what? I just found out today that in Kuala Lumpur, we too have one place like Brisbane's Harbour town, just that ours are much much smaller, factory outlets.

My sister asked me if I am interested to visit the Esprit factory outlet. Since, I have nothing to do...so I answered yes. thinking that all they got to have is just one small shop with few clothes to call it as factory outlet. Yeah, me "looking down" on them. Cant blame me because last week when I went to the zara warehouse sales, all I got at the end of it was just a body full of sweat hahaha. Very hideous selection they got at the warehouse sales....and all big sizes!!!. So dissapointed was I that for the first time, I didnt get anything from a Zara sales hahaha.

Anyway, by that dissapointment, I thought it might be the same for the esprit outlet. But wait...when we arrived...then only I realised omg, this is my new playground !!!! hahahaha look at the left is Esprit and Quiksilver.....look at the right is Calvin Klein, Armani Exchange !!!! hahaha ...like all "teenage girls" I am estatic !!! The one thing that I did not do was screaming and keep gigling hahaha, maybe because my mother was with us hahaha.

Okie, the end result? I spent over RM 550 on Esprit and Quiksilver. Bought two shirts and two pants from Esprit. One shirt and one short from Quiksilver hehe.... I called my best friend, Anne, she scolded the hell out of me because I spent too much again....But then, Anne, if you see that guy who was queueing in front of me, he and his family, bought 35 pairs of shirts and shorts....worth how much? RM 2350!!!!! Eh I am almost dropped on the floor when I saw the pile of clothes on the counter and how the register blings in with four digits!!!. The uncle some more smile at me, I think I watched with an obvious awe hahaha. I mean I seen people bought many stuff on grocery but on clothing, this was the first time!!. Gosh, I wonder how big was their wardrobe is...hahaha

Upon walking out from the shop, my mother started her lecture....."Gosh, bought again.....your wardrobe is almost collapsing!!!! No more space to put in....." hahaha...I guess, i will just need to find space. If I tell her, I definitely would come here again....sure she will slap me there and then hahaha.... This trip a bit rush, no time to venture that CK and AX....till next time. I even already have someone in mind to bring along hahahaha..... KARIN, if you are reading this, get ready....leave Lisabel with your sister in law....this is a true sport, we got to go with energy hahahaha

Ok la tomorrow got important management presentation.....want to sleep...see ya.
P/s: why nowadays no more photos to see? because me very lazy hahahaha....next time la. Practising for my english test in dec !!! So have to write a lot haha

Surrender ~ Laura Pausini

I can't pretend anymore
that I am not affected, I'm not moved
I can't lie to myself
that I'm not always thinking of You.
You made strong
to show me I'm not weak to fall in love
well I thought I'd never need
now I can't get enough
I always made it on my own
I always thougt that I would keep control
You changed everything I believed in
And now I just can't fight this feeling, baby!

I raise my hands and I surrender
'Cause Your love is too strong and I can't go on
Without Your tender arms around me.
I raise my hands and I surrender!
I don't wanna resist
cause your touch and kiss have shattered my defenses!
I surrender.

I have to admit that I
I never thought I'd need someone this way
'Cause You've opened my eyes so that I
I can see so much more.
I always made it on my own
I always thougt that I would keep control
You changed everything I believed in
And now I just can't fight this feeling, baby!

I raise my hands and I surrender (Oh, I surrender baby)
'Cause Your love is too strong and I can't go on
Without Your tender arms around me.
I raise my hands and I surrender!
I don't wanna resist 'cause your touch and your kiss have shattered my defenses!
I surrender...

I surrender to the feeling in my heart, uhuhu
I surrender to the safety of your heart
to the touch of your lips
to the taste of your kisses.

(Choir) I raise my hands and I surrender (oh, baby, baby)
'cause Your love is too strong and I can't go on
without Your tender arms around me, hey!
(Choir) I raise my hands (oh baby) and I surrender (surrender)
'cause Your love is too strong and I can't go on (without you)
without Your tender arms around me, hey!

I raise my hands and I surrender
'Cause Your love is too strong and I can't go on
Without Your tender arms around me.
And I surrender

(Choir) Surrender...Surrender...

I can't pretend anymore,
I can't lie to myself
that I'm not always thinking of You.

Ouch Ouch...

Today went to the gym...after three months of staying lazy, finally went to the gym today. The result? Sore muscle and pain everywhere hahahaha.....rusty already I think haha. I couldnt felt myself actually, my hands and my legs are as if not in my control....I am like a dead fish haha..

Thinking of tomorrow hitting the gym again but then now after this ordeal, I guess I am going to take a day off hahahaha.....at least a day.

After the gym, I am so hungry that I cannot help myself but to buy a fillet burger. They are now having this special menu....spicy filet hahaha...The taste not so bad but I still prefer the original one. After taken the filet, I came back and my mother cooked one big bowl of mee hon kueh hahaha.... I know I know, you sure said "my god...so tam chiak"....as in hokkien I normally would replied "mee hoon kueh niah la...." hahahaha....I like to eat....cannot help it. hahaha

Went through my appraisal with my new boss yesterday. That was my toughest appraisal that I ever had in my entire career...at least so far. It even have a follow up session!!! Can you imagine that? Normally, appraisal session you only have one but mine got two and have to detail in specifically with proof !!! Gosh, at the end of my first session, I actually out of breath. I told myself, this better be good......if at the end my bonus and increment is still as shit, I am going to give him a piece of my mind. People dont called me a "bitch" for nothing hahahahaha

Sigh, will write more next time.....even my fingers are also pain and weak hahaha....tata.

Three Things To Do...

Lately, didnt manage to blog...too busy with everything and at the end of the whole thing, the last thing you want to do is to write. What am I busy with?

Firstly, I already at the final end of collecting my documents to kick out my skill assessment. Yes, all i need to do now is to get a notary public whose office is just 3 minutes away from my home hahaha am I lucky or what. Talk about lucky, the other day when I was reading the requirement on the skill assessment by ACS (Australian Computer Society, yeah yeah finally decided to go for Aus pr but too long to tell here....i will tell next time...i still have not write about my trip isnt it? hahaha well it will come ), they need me to have a letter from my university to confirm that I am a full time student and a letter to tell why certain subjects are exempted. I felt so frustrated and decided not to give them that....until they really asked for it. As I was pulling out my certificate out to do photocopy, the letter fell out....it was the letter from uni and yes the exemption letter as well hahaha. I must have asked them to wrote me those letter before I left. I have planned this migration ever since I was in uni hahaha but I forgot that I did that already hehe...so good.

Secondly, I am looking for a job to Canada. Eh eh eh...Canada? I thought you are moving to Aus? That was the expression I get whenever I tell a friend or a colleague. I am applying to Australia PR but I am not moving to Australia now, at least not so soon. I would still want to go to Canada to take a look and experience the adventure that it has for me.......if at the end of the fourth year, I do like it, then I continue to stay on. Otherwise, I go back to Australia. So now I am applying for a job of which is so hard with the current global economy tsunami...sigh.

Thirdly, I am looking for a good lawyer....why? Because I need to transfer my house title...well technically not my house yet. My father left with no will and so my mother wants to transfer the title to me now to save future complication. That is the thing, it is already complicated because he didnt left any will.....so a will is very important !!!! Sigh, anyway, I dont think I can do this myself...so better to engage a lawyer to do it for me.....I cant handle everything on my own. Too much to handle ....

Oopps need to sleep already.....tomorrow got to work. Huh work on Deepavali? Yeah I need to !!! anyway HAPPY DEEPAVALI...

High School Musical 3 Trailer - Official

Went with my sister to watch this show....its nice but I prefer the first high school musical...more POWER!!!

But i still like this one afterall hahaha...makes me think back during my school years hehe

Mamma Mia Mania....

I have came back !!!! Time really flies huh....I am already a week back from my holiday now. I know I know, for those of you "subscriber with no fee" to my blogs, I have been missing in action. I even have questions on why am I not blogging recently hahahaha.....never know that this site can be such entertaining to you guys hahaha..

Anyway, I would discuss further on my aussie trip...for the past one week is so busy with the photos. My gosh, the internet in malaysia is a speed killer. I cant upload in one go of my photos but rather have to break down in smaller patches to do that....thus take lots of time. I just finished uploaded them in my facebook. So go and check it out....also at flickr site (www.flickr.com/masterwincerlotte) i think hahahaha. Anyway, I just became a member of this flickr site and not sure if i got that right. No tags or description on the photos because of me being lazy hahaha.

Went to see Mamma Mia with my sisters tonight. Finally !!!! The verdict? I love it !!!!!!! and now I am thinking of going for the actual theater from the original broadway cast. So expensive the ticket but I guess it just something that worth to go for.....but no one to go with me !!! Sigh.

Ok....have to get up early tomorrow. Ok promise i will tell about my adventure in Australia......but till then, stay tuned. I do know how to keep the adrenalin running huh hahaha

Toi travelling to Aussie Land....

I would be travelling to the land where kangaroos made the hops and the koalas made the yawns hahahaha... My flight will be at tomorrow 10 am....by Malaysia Airlines.

Will have to sleep early....need to get up early at 6 because my taxi is picking me up at 7 am. Sigh, my only concern is really on the timing but on the luggage hahaha.....I am taking so many things as if I am going to stay there for good hahaha. Well must travel with style rite, sooooo meaning the whole closet just have to bring there hahahaha.... that is we gay guy always do haha.

ok time to get some sleep....till then cheerio, and wait for the adventures stories revelaed after the end of my trip wah hahahaha

One more day to go....

Here it is, the ultimate time that was planned out all the months........my trip to Australia will finally come in about 24 hours hahahaha.......

Just finished packing. My god, I think I will definitely kena "bah kuah" hahahaha....for bringing too many things. Sigh what to do, going for 22 days leh, of course have to bring more clothes right. Okie okie okie, i know you will said there are laundries there but hey I am on holiday, why would i want to worry about laundry? hahahahaha

Okie i am so tired after a tiring workout.....time to get some sleep. Tomorrow still have to work.....yahooooooo, last day to 25 days of free interruptions from LOBSTER!!!!!!

For Your Love ~ Stevie Wonder

All the gold in the world
Is nothing to possess
If all the things that it can bring
Can't add up to one ounce of your happiness

And for your love
I would do anything
Just to see you smile upon your face
For your love
I would go anywhere
Just you tell me and I'll be right there

A diamond that shines
Like a star in the sky
Is nothing to behold
For minuscule is any light
If it can't like you brighten up my soul

And for your love
I would do anything
Just to see you smile upon your face
For your love
I would go anywhere
Just you tell me and I'll be right there

I could have never fathomed this
Such joy , love and tenderness
That you give to me
For the love I feel inside
It's so wonderful I can't hide
And I glow, I glow
With just the thought of you
I do, I do, I do, I do, I do, I do

And for your love
I would do anything
Just to see you smile upon your face
For your love
I would go anywhere
Just you tell me and I'll be right there

Change....A simple yet frightful word....

Today went to Church and had this sermon that had me thinking, or rather make me realised many things about change.

Life itself if you do not take the extra step to move forward, you find itself repeating every single thing on its own. Without a change, this routine cyclic will remained until you make an effort to introduce something new into your life. This new thing that you introduced are the stroke of colours that you are painting on your life. Change itself has two result i think, one is you got what you wished for or you can get something that is awfully wrong. Some people is too complacent with what they have that they do not anticipate or hate change. But change is envitable.

For me, I want a change every now and then. I always only gave myself three years in everything, except relationship of course, to initiate a change. I find it is necessary to have new dreams, a new plan and a new ways in every three years. Three years are long enough to have a habit kicks in and enough for you to learn and to have what experience has to offer. Some did it in five years, but that is ok. What most important thing is we do dream. When we talked about dream, we basically dont just give it a thought. We have to plan and then make sure that the change is there in place to bring the dream to life. I like to set a realistic dreams for myself and I still do. Small dream with small plan can bring as much satisfaction as big dreams.

That is the reason I chose Canada, this time around. I want a change, not just to my career but also to my environment. I need to enlarge my social network, my spiritual walks and most importanly my life experiences. A change for me is something that always a part of me.....something that I like to try, even though at times I have a great deal of fear in me. I mean who will not be fearful right for something that you do not see. Men are most frightful for things that they have no idea of, like something that they cant see, hear or touch.....so little knowledge of the other side of the city makes you fear to attack the enemy. But what you got is to only use one card...."FAITH". You need to have faith in what you believe in......I find it important. Its faith that always drive people to go to the other side of the mountain even if they cant see where they are heading to. So today I told myself, I am going to renew my faith.......to just go with faith, to walk with faith and to work with faith. Everything shall be fine and if it doesnt, its still ok I got something added to my life to share.....

When I looked up to the sky and I know HE is smiling back at me.........and with that I know I will have everything to make the impossibles to be a reality that I can live with.

Another Day Goes By....

Today after woke up from my sleep, I felt a bit dizzy. Dont know if I have overslept. Sigh, then I discovered I got another zit on my nose. Struggle to get it off before next week......now have to thrown in whatever Ozy or Clearasil to get rid of it. I looked like Rudolph my god....a red dot right in the middle of my nose.

Then as usual, I am fixing the blog, uploading some pictures and then chat with Melissa. Too caught up with the chat that I forgot that I am still not yet brush my teeth and shower and it is alraedy 11.40 when I realised. I have to leave my house latest by 12.15, otherwise i cant make it on time to office by 1 pm haha. So I get it done and when it came to my lunch, I was watching this game show on tv that I again totally forgot that I am actually late for work hahahahaha.... by the time i realised, it was already 12.35 pm!!!! Yeah, I rushed like mad to the office. When I reached half past 1, I just act nothing happened hahahaha

Today spoke to my colleague from Canada. Just to find out how is the life in Calgary. And the most interesting piece of news that I can remember is for a 900 sq feet condo apartment with two bedrooms would cost me more than 200k canadian dollars.!!!!! Well, I guess that is ok because I dont intend to buy a house in Calgary hahahaaha. I just a squatter in Calgary for a period of maybe three to four years before I move on to another place.....maybe squatter might not be a good word, sojourner might be better or politely said.

Sigh, I am so looking forward for the new challenge already. The previous fear of mine has magically disappeared. Now in fact I feel much more anxious, much more motivated to try something new......its like a child with a new toy. The only worry is how long would I last with the toy that I finally feel bored with it....Dont want to think about it, only when the time comes, I shall know. Now is to put aside and look forward for the new challenge!!

You will support me one hor? even though I am going to a place where I will freeze my arse off at -48 Celcius hahaha.... Never try never know....at least if I failed, then I can still shared the experience. That is the reason why I have not chosen Australia. I like australia just that I dont think I want to do Australia right now, since I have lived there and know so much thing about the place and the people, not to mention tonnes of friends in Down Under. If I go Australia, I am just going back to my old ways.....I would not be able to see and experience somethng different. That is why I chose Canada. A complete change of environment, people and everything except the language hahaha. Who knows I might find something magical there that I like.

Life itself is an experience, a journey. We have to take effort and plan our path, and by the grace of God we shall see and live it through. I want my life not to be a book fo expectation, a norm for everyone but an unique book that spelt outstanding to many others. A life that full of colours, full of joy and full of love. As my own saying goes " A life without a stroke of colour is an empty page but a full life represent a colourful masterpiece that everyone would admire"

Birthday Bash for Vendetta

Last saturday we celebrated Chin Wei's birthday at Neway Centro Klang, two days earlier than its actual date. In fact, today is his actual birthday. Happy Birthday V !!!

Anyway, we went to the karaoke lounge as early as 6 pm, a bit kiasu mah hahaha. The karaoke came with a buffet style. I actually been to Neway before in Damansara but not the klang one. The food there was good but too bad, many things I cant take because of my surgical wound. Damn...I gave a raincheck on the oyster, mussel, prawns ....gosh, I want my seafood!!!!!

We sang songs like we used to do in karaoke.....and eat eat eat and then sing sing sing and then eating and singing and then singing and eating hahahahaha....

I went down to get ah V a cake from secret recipe because thought it will be better to have a cake to blow than none rite. I mean got cake for birthday to blow better mah.......can make wish, more complete. So I bought him a chocolate banana cake....which is nice. 2 kilo eh cake for 4 person, can eat until we vomit ah hahaha

At first thought that want to give him the surprise mah, just wheeled in the cake when the time is right. Mana tau, the waiter asked me something while I am on my way back to the room with my plate full with food. I thought she asked me "when are you finishing?" in cantonese, and I have no idea of what she said, I just told her "ahhh dont know, you should go to the room and asked them". Mana tau once she went into the room and asked "At what time you want the cake to be served!!!". When I heard it, aiyooooooo there goes my surprise.....celaka...never mind lor, easier just eat the cake hahaha.

So here are the shots that i took on that nite...

Room 9 Neway Centro Klang..... coincidentally the room no is 9, truly is Virgo, the Virgins...haha

Bring in the Food.....
Bring in the People....

Finally.....bring in the Cake...

Penang & Cameron 28th Aug ~ 2nd Sept 2008

Its been a while that I updated my blog haha.....didnt had the time to do so actually. I was so worried of my wound that I may not be able to make it for my trip to Penang. The wound is still there but a person like me, would not let that be a show stopper hahaha. I went ahead with the trip anyway, bringing along all the solutions and plasters haha....

At the end of it, it was worth it....meeting my best friend Anne, had a such great fun together.. We had our talks, our laughs and shared time together to watch Ugly Betty haha....it reminded of our time in Australia. I really missed those times....

We went with the gang on a road trip to Cameron. Stopped over in Ipoh to have our breakfast...having to wake up at 6.30 am is no kidding really. When we reached Ipoh at this restaurant about 9 something, you basically have to queue to wait for a table...yeah no kdding. But what surprising was the bill, so expensive breakfast!!! hahaha

Cameron....ever refreshing but very rainy. Actually whenever I went to Penang or Cameron, it will be a raining season. I dont know why the rain clouds always followed me hahaha. We had our food, lots of food and lots of boost YaY!!!! We shared our most inner secrets, had our most evil jokes and most importantly enjoying each other company......Thanks guys for such a memorable and wonderful trip!!!.

Here are the some of the shots that I took during the trip.

Benji...My Beloved Toy Dog

I always wanted a dog as a pet....Dog is men best friend. They sort of understand you in a way of their own. They have this unusual attachment, emotional attachment with men that no other animal has......sigh too bad, my mother laid a ground rule that no pet is allowed.

So, four years ago in order to solve my deprivity of pet, I bought benji.....hahaha A toy dog which I placed in my car. I named him Benji because that was the name I always wanted to name my dog. Together, we have travelled through far and near hahaha.....Today, while waiting for V to get ready, I just took few shots of Benji hahaha and myself of course

One fine day, I will get myself a labrador.....until that day, there is always Benji around hahaha